Feelings Over Break

Over break, I decided that the best way to keep track of how I felt every day was to simply take notes on it every day when it was fresh in my head. As a result, I saw a lot of patterns. On days where I spent a lot of time with my family, my emotional health was clearly higher than on days where I was just relaxing without them. The trend for the peaks in my emotional health  is that interaction with others makes me feel better emotionally. Whether it is with family or friends, my emotions were dependent on others. This shows me that I look to others for security in a way, and that I also am socially comfortable with my emotions. On the other side of the spectrum, my lowest emotional health were the times when I came into conflict with my family, regardless of topic.

My mental health was highly dependent on actions, so essentially what I did determined my mental state. This surprised me in a way, because I would really only expect my actions to deal with my physical happiness. My peaks of mental happiness were generally in moments of triumph. For instance, I felt very sound mentally when I would repeatedly win at a video game. Other times where I felt mentally peaked were when I had solid interactions with people. In both situations, people had a large impact on my mental state. This also goes for my mental lows, which were when I got into arguments or suffered losses of some sort.

Physical health was tough for me to determine over break. The only real physical activity I had was walking to and from the train. When I did do a lot of walking though, and in some cases I ran, I felt happier. My physical peaks were typically moments where I was either relaxing my body completely, such as in a bath, or when I had to clean up the house. The lows were moments of confinement and restriction, such as on Easter when I was forced to sit in a contained manner in the pews, or when I was cleaning my room and surrounded by the mess I was moving.